My Story

Finally IHG badminton is over. Today, we lost 5-0 to Eusoff Hall. Well, we walked in expecting to lose and that's exactly what we get. It ended and left us all in a pretty depressing mood cos we didn't manage to put up much of a fight cos the standard difference was too wide. All of us are in quite a sien mood nw...Well, what to do...winning isn't everything in the world. So, we should js put this away and move on. But, even for a badminton fanatic like me, I find that I really need a break from the game...I say...but most probably I'll be back playing soon...hopefully not so though...I promised myself I will concentrate fully on studies after IHG... Need to do something about it since my results last sem was pretty bad...So, for now, don't look back and regret....just look forward...

Finally had the first IHG badminton match today. Sad to say I disappointed myself and a lot of ppl, especially my partner Zhou Jing and also my supportive friends who came to cheer me on. Thanks SY, SL, Gail, Tirza, EH, and others who came...Very pai seh when u all cheered me and Zhou Jing's names....but thanks a lot!!! Hee... The doubles pair we were up against is about our standard...there's a high chance of winning. Js didn't have the right shots to beat them. Me especially was making mistakes...not really playing well...even had 2 service mistakes. Haih...so close...yet so far. I was lousy I know...just knew I that that was not my best. Maybe I was nervous...but hey...that's not really an excuse. Argh....why why why....it's over anyway.

On the brighter side, we did manage to take one point from the other doubles, Ju Ee and Hui Yee really played well to beat the Sheares pair. Congrats... Even the guys managed to take a point from KR through Ah Chua our MM in the last singles match. Thinking over the match...could say that I didn't do a lot of mistakes...most of my balls crossed the net...it's maybe the tactics a bit out...we kept hitting to opponent's hand...had quite a number of nice smashes...so I should cheer up and look forward to Sunday's match with EH...okay...whoever's reading my blog...this game the chances are much lower than today's game k...so dun hv high expectations...I just hope I can put on a good fight...

I had my first CTW classs today. I'm starting to freak out a little already. Mostly it's cos of the group work and class participation thing. I don't know anyone there except for Leonard...but he has a bunch of friends with him in the same class... The rest are mostly PRC I suppose. Maybe it's just the 1st class...and I should calm myself saying that I will find some nice ppl to work with...hopefully. Besides that though, the thought of speaking out in class is also scaring me...it's just who I am...I dunno y...I js don't like speaking out what I think cos I'm afraid others might think I'm talking rubbish. I noe...I should js say what I want to say...noone will bother if it's right or wrong. But, I'm just me...ever since last time I'm like that. But, if I don't overcome it, I will be getting very low marks for class participation which will affect my grade greatly I suppose. I don't want Marketing to repeat itself. The things ppl do for grades...this is an intrusion of human rights isn't it? Forced to speak for the sake of marks. Well, guess I js have to learn to overcome that fear...I can say that I'm sufficiently proficient in English so I need not be afraid of that aspect...now js comes the speaking out part and the idea part. It's only the 1st tutorial after all...I need to help myself get through this...speak out speak out....

Okay....we were supposed to have our first badminton IHG game today at 10am. Woke up early to go warm up at takraw court at 8.30am. By 9.30am, we were already in MPSH 5 warming up and getting ready (more like getting freaked out at the sight of the opponent's power). As usual, of course the thing didn't start at 10am la...by 10 plus, they finally called for all the hall's captain. They're getting started....so we thought... Then, unexpectedly, our MM told us that the organisers didn't book the courts at SRC and they were booked by the public...so stupid la the organisers. So, we had 3 choices: either postpone to 1pm or 4pm or go to Sheares or KR hall... After lots of discussion they finally decided to postpone today's match to next Sunday 1pm...we can c how "efficient" the organisers are...What a BIG mistake to make....organise a competition and don't even have a venue for it? Wow...didn't know these things can happen...

Well, at least we have more time to prepare for the game...which I don't think will make a big difference after seeing how we perform in training today. We kept on making simple mistakes...ah basically we didn't play well at all la...if we play like this against Eusoff or any other hall...I think we will kind of embarass ourselves...well enought of whining...guess we should js step up our game, and try our best not to make mistakes (that's the main aim)...I don't really know what we should do actually....other than js try our best.

By the way, we have another crisis cos Yan Teng, Ju Ee's partner has hurt her knee and is advised to keep off badminton for at least 2 weeks. So, now Ju Ee is without a partner....and we haven't came to an arrangement yet as it js happened...the things that happen...gosh...

Appreciate today I tell myself. What else did I do today? I enjoyed supporting Ee Hiang at floorball though it really gives me an impression that the sport is super rough and I vow never to try playing haha. I also enjoyed watching the KR vs Temasek badminton match in Sheares Hall. Temasek beat KR 3-2. I wonder if my hall got chance against KR or not if we meet them...come to think of it...not much chance either...hmm...Then, had lunch/tea with Yee Cheng and Shu Lin at Ginza...also shopping around there. Poor YC came all the way to MPSH to support me (which I dun think it's the main reason she's there...think she's there to support her hall guys as well hee) then end up we had to compensate her by going to support KR at badminton haha...okla..not bad...had fun...hee...

So, look forward and think positive even if the cup is only a quarter full.... :)

Today during badminton training we had company...there were swarms of bees around the spotlights gosh so irritating. At the beginning, we thought there were js a few...did kill some. It's a scary sight seeing the bees "flock" together like that...later discovered they even gathered together near the light to form some sort of a beehive formation...scary...

At first, I wasn't bothered by the bees at all until they start flying around you and you can't even concentrate on the shuttlecock. Then, I was talking with Ju Ee when suddenly felt something at my neck, swept it away, turned out to be a bee la. Guessed it stung me cos I felt a prickling sensation there. I was like 'ahhh...damn bee...'. I think the stingy thingy was stuck inside my skin and Ju Ee pulled it out for me. The first few minutes were pretty painful...I was closing my eyes haha...Ju Ee thought I was going to faint liao...actually I was js closing my eyes to I dunno..."feel the pain"?? Hmm...anyway after that it was ok d la...now also not pain liao...all that's left is a mosquito bite like scar...

So, didn't train much today cos of the bees and the wind...luckily also...cos played badminton with Alex they all in the evening liao...was pretty tired out d...now mood quite down...dunno y...maybe cos of maths lecture + tiredness... Hmm...should js sleep and hopefully wake up tmr to a brand new bright day...

Just discovered or realized that guys well they are human too. They can become emotional/they have feelings or moodiness also. Emotions are often associated with girls normally... I guess the times have changed. Now guys cook, girls eat, guys get emo, girls try to stay strong. There's 2 incidents that made me "see" this... I don't want to go into details about it...

I just want to say that it gets quite freaky and scary when someone's mood just goes in the dumps...suddenly...and you dunno how to react. You try to make it all better but maybe in the end make it turn out worse. So what are we supposed to do...try to cheer them up? If it works, it makes you delighted yes. But, if it doesn't? Just leave it? Wait for time to pass and let time work its magic? Does the magic always work? I suppose it does slowly...however, during that period, it brings thoughts, some nasty and stray, there's nothing we can do but sit and wait? Over that period of time, my mind has changed, thought of all possibilities...what I can, should or shouldn't do? The best solution is still don't care...I don't want to care...I say....but by thinking of it?? Suppose it's still caring....trying my best to act normally...but still can't accept what happened...is still happening...will happen??

Okay...these were js random thoughts which has just be flowing around in me since during holidays...js pray that time heals...everything will be fine...I really hope so...though there's already a scar...and I wish that everything will js stay as it is...

Badminton IHG is coming up soon...yet we face a problem of our doubles partnership. Changes are made to suit the situation...even at national level this happens. We are not playing at international or state or even university level...just hall level. Why are we playing in IHG? In our hall's case, I believe that we just go there to try our best and play hard...have fun! So why so much fuss over a minor change in partnership? I guess it's a bit too short a notice to some...but I don't think it matters a lot...after all we're not expected to win...just play our best and try our best. Make the situation turn out best....we might not be the best players in the world....but just do our best and noone can say anything. If js that one person can js accept the fact then our problem can be resolved. Stressed? It's js a game...don't care about what others say...play to our best ability...what's so hard? If you really gave your best others have no right to comment...if they're such great commenters...ask them to try and play and see how well they can do. We trained so hard and it all boils down to this...changes happen...don't give up js because of a minor matter... I pity our MM who has sacrificed a lot of his time to train us... Hope he's fine...

Haha....it's been a long time since I've blogged. Just pure laziness no other reasons. =p A new semester has started. This first week is not going to be very hectic since there are no tutorials or labs or CTW. But, Monday was quite packed though. Had lecture from 10 til 12 and 2-6. Only CS1102C was quite interesting when the lecturers introduced themselves....other than that it's quite well normal...

For now everything is going quite slowly, I have to buck up nw I suppose cos I'm sure there'll suddenly be a rush....and chapters after chapters will be thrown to us so quickly you won't know what hit you. Today, there were only 2 1-hour lectures (1 of them was just about 35 minutes) so not very busy either...had Ho Yuet over after CS1231 since she was waiting for her Toastmaster's meeting at 7pm. I'm happy that she's so daring to go join that....I feel that it'll really help someone to overcome the fear of speaking out...I can never imagine myself joining these kind of public speaking stuff... =p

By the way, there's badminton IHG this coming Sunday. I should be playing doubles against Eusoff...just hope to do my very best and not lose badly...haha... On another note, been having a bit of trouble with someone lately...dunno what's the cause...trying not to bother and not care... :(